What I Should Do

I’ve always been the type that does what I should be doing, or at least what I think is expected of me. And, to be honest, it’s wearing down on me. Even when I’m by myself, I have this constant struggle of doing what I want to do and what I think I should be doing. I’m sure for most people, these are the same thing. However, I run into it time and time again, even with little things, when I’m not doing what I want, or I’m worrying that people expect me to do something else.

Today with Pinterest, Instagram, Twitter, Facebook, BuzzFeed and every other site showcasing what other people are doing and their accomplishments, I feel even more pressure to live up to that. I feel like I do need to be able to juggle advancing my career, taking care of my family, DIY-ing everything, making gourmet meals every night, and whatever else. But why?

Is it really the end of the world if I’m happy in my current job and ok with staying there for a while? Do I really need to push myself for a promotion or different position? Some people would say yes, because you need to keep moving and improving. Honestly, I’m too busy with other things in my life right now. I don’t want to deal with interviewing, more travel or any other additional responsibilities that may come with a new position or promotion. I’m comfortable. What’s wrong with comfortable?

Do I really need to lose every pound I gained while pregnant with our son before I get pregnant again? Isn’t it enough to just try and eat healthy, with the occasional indulgence, and try to be active when I have the chance? Can’t I be ok with getting home at night and spending time with my husband on the couch or just reading to my son before bedtime instead of making sure I fit in that ever important workout?

I’m almost 30 and I think I’m finally figuring it out. Yes, if I really wanted to push myself, I could get up at 5 AM and work out and try and lose that weight. I could spend extra time at work trying to get ahead. However, none of that is a priority for me right now. It’s not that I can’t do it or I don’t have enough time. There are always ways that I could make everything work, but I’m plainly stating that it’s not a priority. I’d rather get 6-7 hours of sleep at night. I’d rather get home on time, stay up a little later and hang out with my husband watching shows that we enjoy together. I’d rather do so many other things in my life right now.

Why waste my time worrying about things that I’m not even invested in? It adds more stress to my life, and my family’s, when I try and take on more than I can. I know now that I need to focus on the things that make me happy right now: my husband and our son. Once I do that, everything else will start to fall into place.